{"id":4462,"date":"2010-10-13T09:25:05","date_gmt":"2010-10-13T03:55:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/?p=4462"},"modified":"2021-01-16T13:42:52","modified_gmt":"2021-01-16T08:12:52","slug":"the-crowd-in-my-head","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/2010\/10\/13\/the-crowd-in-my-head\/","title":{"rendered":"The crowd in my head"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Two wonderful posts I read a while back &#8211; one which I could completely identify with, and the other, such a complete antithesis of what I do that it was almost like a mirror I was forced to look into- but something I could utterly understand.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Amit Varma&#8217;s &#8216;<a href=\"http:\/\/in.news.yahoo.com\/columnist\/amit_varma\/19\/society-you-crazy-breed\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Society, You Crazy Breed<\/a>&#8216;, which is about many inter-related things -the need to escape the clutter, even of our own thoughts, the want of validation and acceptance, the human interaction that will take us away from &#8220;the terror of [our] own singular thoughts.&#8221; (<a href=\"http:\/\/www.theatlantic.com\/personal\/archive\/2010\/08\/the-woods\/61451\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">from<\/a>) It also talks about debate on the internet, but while that makes a large part of the &#8216;clutter&#8217;, especially the micro-debates, the &#8216;must comment&#8217; <a href=\"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/2010\/03\/31\/social-obligations\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">social obligation <\/a>is something I&#8217;ve written about earlier, so I was more interested in the first part.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">I used to absolutely love solitude earlier, and it was easier to access too. But now what&#8217;s easily more accessible is a crowd. It slowly becomes a sort of addiction, despite me wanting to stay away. Its no longer easy to be objective enough to separate a want from a need, and its quite easy to fool the self. When one has never been the particularly confident type and has barely gotten out of a constant validation requirement, its particularly difficult. An RT on Twitter is easy validation, and as I&#8217;ve said before, the vicarious &#8216;living&#8217; is easy and fun. Its good to be connected, and be a carefully moulded version of ourselves that is acceptable to those we would like to be connected to. The trick, of course, is to be a version\u00a0 true to our own selves, something we are comfortable with, in solitude, or in a crowd. But that&#8217;s not easy.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">That brings me to the second post, &#8220;<a href=\"http:\/\/therestlessquill.blogspot.com\/2010\/08\/one-for-time-capsule.html\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">One for the time capsule<\/a>&#8221; wonderfully written by The Restless Quill, about living life on one&#8217;s own terms, fighting the battles inside, the arguments outside, and &#8216;inhabiting a life&#8217;, which can create a &#8216;light-band of memories&#8217;. Chances are, choices such as those, would be made with minimum validation. Its also, I think, a lot to do with confidence and an understanding that perhaps comes from listening to oneself, in solitude.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Its easy to guess which post I could identify with, and which one is the anti-thesis. There are times when my destiny stared at me in the face, and I looked away furtively, as though looking would mean acknowledging, and then accepting. I can dimly sense these. The ability to make those &#8216;difficult&#8217; choices and keep walking, joyous in the consciousness of what one has learned and the comfortable understanding of what one has lost out on, it must be liberating. I have a feeling, and unfortunately, a feeling only, that it must really be wonderful.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">until next time, a crowdsourced time capsule<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Two wonderful posts I read a while back &#8211; one which I could completely identify with, and the other, such a complete antithesis of what I do that it was almost like a mirror I was forced to look into- but something I could utterly understand. Amit Varma&#8217;s &#8216;Society, You Crazy Breed&#8216;, which is about <a class=\"read-more\" href=\"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/2010\/10\/13\/the-crowd-in-my-head\/\">[&hellip;]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6052,1479,6051,412,6053],"tags":[996,1517,544,372,1520,1518,1516,1299,1519],"class_list":["post-4462","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-choices","category-thoughtstream","category-internet-thoughtstream","category-life","category-purpose","tag-amit-varma","tag-clutter","tag-destiny","tag-freedom","tag-need","tag-solitude","tag-the-restless-quill","tag-validation","tag-want"],"aioseo_notices":[],"post_mailing_queue_ids":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4462","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4462"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4462\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15382,"href":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4462\/revisions\/15382"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4462"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4462"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/manuscrypts.com\/test\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4462"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}